23/2/25 it's been a while since i wrote something here... hello internet. i've been so mentally tired for no reason at all, it sucks. i don't even know what am i doing with life anymore. i feel like i'm wasting my youthful years and i'm gonna turn 18 soon. it's a bit scary. i've just been rotting and not doing anything what usual teens are doing. if only i could live in the internet forever.

17/1/25 today i went to school. was fun, icl. did some english & math yerr. wanted to play game with this guy but his bunass dipped me. but that's why he intrigues me more. why do i keep being attracted to people that clearly doesn't want me bro... and i avoid people who likes me back like ok

16/1/25 finally getting some sort of motivation to continue this website, moreso because i have nothing else to do. just procasinating on my homeschool work, 3/6 works done yay! the rest are kinda just needing more strength for me since i actually need to think but yeah. just living my mundane life, everything just very calming! i mostly just enjoy and talking with my friends these days. shoutout dylan, chat gc, and cai for being here w me and hanging out with me most ! thanks for allowing me to be myself and supporting my madness xD i feel very comfortable with you all. i am still in that constant state of emptiness. what am i living for ? not sure, but i'm just slowly trying to become a better person each day. i think i'll continue posting here more often, it feels nice to write my thoughts out loud in a website. i like the enticement of someone potentially reading this, or no one at all. i personally not really into that sort of "writing in a private diary/journal" thing, just makes me feel weird...

25/12/25 merry... holidays.. i don't feel so joyous, honestly.my pride and joy that i spent 10 hours straight on. i keep feeling up and down but i try to repress it. but enough about that, i feel so happy about this site creation. it's always been a dream of mine to own a neocities that looks like this. but i fear i have nobody else to share the same sentiment as i am. really reminding me of how lonely i am on this holiday. i have plenty of friends to talk to, sure, but it doesn't really feel like i have anyone.